Ask Tony Milner about the moment he became a dad.
He won’t be able to pick just one.
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Maybe it was the day his son, still in the womb, was given a name. Maybe it was the minute he cut the umbilical cord or learned to fasten an oversized diaper around a newborn.
Maybe it was during the long stretch of sleepless nights spent standing, pacing, holding his son, giving him food and comfort, warding off the nightmares.
"You try to think of yourself as an individual," said Milner, 35. "But once you’re a dad, you realize: I only really have one job, and that’s to be a father and focus on Jesse."
It’s what a father does.
But in the eyes of the state of Utah, Milner is no father.
Milner and his husband, Matthew Barraza, are two of six plaintiffs challenging Utah to recognize their same-sex marriage and imbue their union with the rights and benefits afforded to their opposite-sex counterparts.
Last month, U.S. Judge Dale A. Kimball ordered the state to do just that, but Utah has appealed the ruling to the 10th Circuit Court of Appeals, which put all movement toward spousal benefits on hold.
Now, Milner and Barraza — like more than 1,000 married same-sex couples in the state — are waiting for answers, hoping that judges will affirm what they already know: that they are a family.
Barraza legally adopted Jesse after he was born in 2009. But Milner remains a legal stranger to the boy he’s nurtured since birth.
As Father’s Day looms, the men will celebrate in the face of fear and unanswered questions.
"There is always that ‘what if?’ You never know what’s going to happen. That’s one of the reasons marriage exists: so that children can be safe and taken care of," said Barraza, 39. "We just hope that soon, we can have the same protections for Jesse as other families do."
Family oriented » Milner grew up in West Jordan; Barraza in Ogden.
As children, both boys were quiet, thoughtful, bookish. They loved spending time with their parents and siblings. They grew up in The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints.
Coming out as gay and leaving the church later in life didn’t change some of the fundamental aspects of their upbringing: They both longed for a family of their own.
They both wanted to be a father.
"It’s what drew me to him," Milner said of their first meeting, more than 11 years ago. "I consider ourselves very fortunate that we’ve found each other."
In 2008, a family friend learned she was pregnant and decided to put the baby up for adoption.
She approached the couple and asked them: Were they ready to be dads?Next Page >
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