Dear Carolyn • Is there an age at which divorce causes more or less damage to children? My kids are in elementary and middle school. My husband and I have grown apart and live like friendly roommates. I'm very unhappy, but I think the kids perceive our home as warm and secure. Sometimes I think I should just stay with my husband until our youngest child goes to college, but that will be in 10 years. I don't think I can hang in there that long. Will the kids be able to handle it better if I wait until they're in high school?
For the Kids' Sake
Dear For the Kids' Sake • The kids will handle anything better if you demonstrate compassion, resourcefulness, selflessness, wisdom and integrity. Which means I don't see any best-case outcome here unless you first try really try to restore these friendly roommates to husband and wife. Which means saying to this spousal roommate ... something, anything, to open his eyes to the extent of your unhappiness, and inviting him into the process of reversing years of mutual emotional neglect. I realize it's inherently offensive for a third party to declare from on high that you don't "deserve" a divorce because you haven't worked "hard" "enough" to "save" your marriage. However, you put the stay-for-kids option on the table, so respect your own reasons and keep it there, with one tweak do it for yourself, too. Notching years into your Maytag like some kind of domestic castaway, though, is a cop-out; don't just stay till it's societally palatable to leave. Instead, take that concern for your kids' emotional health and back it with everything you've got. Recognize that you had your reasons to choose this man as your life partner and father to your children. Then, put in the effort to find out whether any of those reasons can be revisited, rethought, repurposed or retrofitted into some form of personal satisfaction. Maybe you call it faint praise that your husband is someone you get along with, are invested in and who isn't mean to you but, from on low, I call it a chance.
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