Carolyn Hax: Depression is normal for teens and adults
Dear Carolyn • I feel defeated in school as in, I can't focus on any of my work because of some past events, like not making a sports team, losing friends, family dying, grades dropping, and just plain feeling alone even though there are people around me who I would hope to consider friends. I felt like I put in a lot of time to make a certain team or get the highest grades, but something always seems to happen to bring me back down again. My parents are also pushing me to see if I want to change schools and if "it would please me" to see a therapist, as if I was some kind of madman (which I probably am, might I say). I know these just sound like regular teen problems that "everyone deals with, so you're not so different!," which I'm told a lot. I feel lost.
Dear Outsider • Seeing therapist does not = madman. You sound depressed, and that is indeed a "regular teen problem," as well as an adult one however, it's one best treated instead of ignored in hopes it will pass. Accept your parents' offer and welcome the freedom to unburden yourself to a professional, someone you can't shock or disappoint. As for the hard work that didn't (in your opinion) pay off I think you're being tough on yourself. You're being tough on life in general, in fact. Life and achievement and fulfillment are not linear. You don't do X amount of work for Y amount of time just to claim Z reward or accolade. Every once in a while, yes, it feels good to collect a blue ribbon for your trouble, but the true value of hard work is inherent. It teaches you about yourself, including your gifts and your weaknesses; it teaches you to develop the former and strengthen or work around the latter. Hard work teaches you the value of investing yourself fully in something vs. just going through the motions. It teaches you to give vs. take. So there is no such thing as being "back down again" after time spent applying yourself. You retain the most important rewards inside you; the courage and clarity of your letter speak to that. Please ask your parents for a depression screening, at least, as a start to reconnecting your gifts to your sense of purpose.
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